The title has nothing to do with my post today. It's 7 am. Are you shocked?
I haven't been to bed yet. hehehe.
5-30-11 5:20 am
hmmm. very unproductive day. but it was a good day.
Things that made me happy:
1) I finished "Heaven is for Real"- the tale of 4 year old Colton's encounters in Heaven after 3 minutes "dead" due to a ruptured appendix.
2) I got to sleep in - a little under the weather. Mom had a headache (rare and weary occurrence) so all but Robert got their Sunday afternoon nap in - before 10 am. :)
3) Horse camp was fun! To be around people that my parents grew up with and hear all their stories and to witness long-term, small town marriages was pretty neat.
4) Tyler's grad party was fun-especially the friendship bracelets :)
5) Hanging out with Ashtin and Taps :)
6)Meeting and visiting with people who usually make my drinks (Jose's and SnB crew)
7) Coming home to Hugo- who was waiting on me and ready to go night night :)
I wasn't really unhappy about anything today. Of course I slept almost all day, but I didn't get a "lazy" lecture. Dad had some cruel jokes about "cat stew" since Hugo has been sickly, but I punched him in the arm.
The Juggling: Dudes- I have no money.
We should know Dad's lab results by Thursday. He had an appointment today (Tuesday) but he is busy sprigging and so I am with mom today taking her to therapy. Sometimes I'm glad I don't have a job sometimes so I can be here for her when Dad has to be away. But I need my hands to be busy so my mind isn't swirling. I love being emotional support for Mom though- I think she loves it more.
So quote of the day, is from George Hyler. He was describing a fall/crash/mishap? with a mule when he was in Colorado and I think he went through some branches/pine needles. But he said, "It looked like I had been sorting cats with my face." Oh.MY.GOSH. I laughed so hard. I was about to pee my pants. - I almost didn't make it to the little mare's room.
hahaha. get it? Little mare?
Ok. I know.
Thanks for reading. :)
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
5-28-11 Saturday After 4AM
I'm tired. But I can't sleep. I feel like am so sensitive to everything? GU! Say it with me. GU! Not Ugh. That takes to much throat effort. I feel like I have the patience of a 4 year old, the nerves of a 65 year old, the heart and compassion of a young mother, and the sorrow of a widow. I've never felt my age and I dont' think I've ever acted it. People just annoy me so much lately and pretty easily too. I find myself constantly complaining and enable to chit chat about the good. Kinda like unable to appreciate the blue jays in the yard when there are flies buzzing around you on the patio? Obviously your present company notices the birds but do they SEE these dadgum flies?!
I think it's important for me to recognize that I am more often that not angry and scared. Angry at the flies and scared that next time the flies come, there won't be blue jays in the yard- maybe even there will be hail. Who APPRECIATES hail?! And I'll stew longer in frustration over the hail than I was smiling over the blue jays! Why am I like this?! I'm not a morning person. I'm not someone who can live without chocolate on a daily basis. Who drinks water and nothing else. I'm a gluttonous night owl ok? And why is it easier to be negative?
I used to only get so upset when something was unfair- a comment, and outcome. And now, I find myself in annoyance to the point of ANGER over ridiculousness.
The cop at the movies that warned us against cell phone use or dismissal and where we could not put our feet. The text message of cancelled weekend plans when "they" knew 9 hours before. The 15 year old girl at the dentist crying hysterically because she didn't want the pain of getting a cavity fixed at her appointment. You don't see ME crying because I have to pay $184 of my own money for some middle aged man to call me sweetie and prod around in my mouth accusing me of not flossing. I can get that at home for free. Ok?
See what I mean? You"re probably nodding along with me, seeing my side and reason, but why can't I let it GOOOO?
It's like I'm constantly holding a stick of dynamite- I suddenly don't care that the dry cleaners ruined my vintage skirt. And tomorrow depends on where that stick of dynamite ended up. Not my precious skirt!
Am I just Negative Nancy? Or am I Doomed Dana?
I feel like both.
I wish I could be Right Rachel or Justified Janice over here.
Anywho the point of my blogging is to:
Blow off some humor and sarcasm. (I'm full of it)
Update people on my family and our trailer trashed version of Walton Mountain
Outreach/Inreach to me and my craziness.
I'm hoping it's entertaining and insightful as well as healing/therapeutic for me.
I'm hoping it won't be a rantmobile-although that's part of it. Wow my hand is sore from write-rambling. ok. More thoughts later.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I think it's important for me to recognize that I am more often that not angry and scared. Angry at the flies and scared that next time the flies come, there won't be blue jays in the yard- maybe even there will be hail. Who APPRECIATES hail?! And I'll stew longer in frustration over the hail than I was smiling over the blue jays! Why am I like this?! I'm not a morning person. I'm not someone who can live without chocolate on a daily basis. Who drinks water and nothing else. I'm a gluttonous night owl ok? And why is it easier to be negative?
I used to only get so upset when something was unfair- a comment, and outcome. And now, I find myself in annoyance to the point of ANGER over ridiculousness.
The cop at the movies that warned us against cell phone use or dismissal and where we could not put our feet. The text message of cancelled weekend plans when "they" knew 9 hours before. The 15 year old girl at the dentist crying hysterically because she didn't want the pain of getting a cavity fixed at her appointment. You don't see ME crying because I have to pay $184 of my own money for some middle aged man to call me sweetie and prod around in my mouth accusing me of not flossing. I can get that at home for free. Ok?
See what I mean? You"re probably nodding along with me, seeing my side and reason, but why can't I let it GOOOO?
It's like I'm constantly holding a stick of dynamite- I suddenly don't care that the dry cleaners ruined my vintage skirt. And tomorrow depends on where that stick of dynamite ended up. Not my precious skirt!
Am I just Negative Nancy? Or am I Doomed Dana?
I feel like both.
I wish I could be Right Rachel or Justified Janice over here.
Anywho the point of my blogging is to:
Blow off some humor and sarcasm. (I'm full of it)
Update people on my family and our trailer trashed version of Walton Mountain
Outreach/Inreach to me and my craziness.
I'm hoping it's entertaining and insightful as well as healing/therapeutic for me.
I'm hoping it won't be a rantmobile-although that's part of it. Wow my hand is sore from write-rambling. ok. More thoughts later.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
5-27-11 Thoughts
So I'm thinking I'd really like to start blogging. Kind of a good the bad the ugly type. (Hence the name). I'd like to write about what made me happy, what stressed me out, and maybe just something random and funny to joy about or something that I could post about that makes it like-see? It could always be worse. I like the idea of posting what makes you happy everyday because it makes it concrete in your mind. I stole the idea from my former math teacher, Mrs Balwanz (now Wilson) on her Wednesday Loves blog.
So maybe I'll start here:
8:17 pm Barnes and Noble
COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE
SO: The good:
Today has been good. I have been saving up errands (post office, pharmacy, returning borrowed movies, wmart needs, oil change) for when I NEEDED to go out because of GAS! With gas nearing $4 a gallon, with my honda being a sturdy V-6, it'll cost me $8 round trip just to check my mail in FARMINGTON! Sooo... when Mom got home in a grumpy mood from checking cows with Dad, I decided I needed to get out of the house too, and she needed to go with me :) I hadn't been to Fayetteville since SUNDAY! So, we rand errands with the sunroof open and some bluegrass pumpin through the speakers. Then when I got home, I wanted more "city energy" and got dressed up (shaved legs, dress, red lipstick (holycowwhoami) )and headed to Barnes and Noble! Ha! On a Friday night. I know. I'm such a loser.
So: What I'm Lovin:
- Barnes and Noble: This is my poor man's beach. I come here with my journal (where every post will be copied from), a book, and pay my bills and get high off caffeine- something I have kicked other than the occasional coffee or Diet Pepsi at the ever delicious Taco Bell :)
-BBT (Big Bang Theory): Reruns! I have somehow missed a bunch this season and am glad we've got a season of reruns. I always look forward to Thursday. Monday sucks. Tuesday Sucks. Wednesday is ok, because the next day is Thursday. Then who doesn't love Friday, Saturday, and after church and lunch Sunday nap? I also love Jimmy Kimmel Live, How I Met Your Mother that comes on at midnight? and the Nate Berkus show that lullaby me to sleep every morning.
-Mom usually wakes me up for the day (at 2pm or later no doubt) with her keyboard playing. She has hit every note since she started playing in rehab last May when we brought her keyboard to her. It's a nice wakeup chime for Hugo and I. We are bums ok? So sue us. :)
-June: my mare has been behaving ME and I finally got her to load!!!! Dad was cursing her and going to get rid of her, but IIIIIIII got her to load in the trailer without a fit! :) Now to work with saddling and riding her... Am I destined to have ornery pets?!
-The weather: I love the rain! I love the storms! I love the sunroof weather! I hate the HEAT! I am soooo a winter, snow, avalanche, frost bite person! AND our A/C is out. Woo! Come on Dollar General $8 fan!
The Ugly:
So we should find out Tuesday aboout Dad's prostate results. I think the rest of us are good. We were approved for another month of therapy and hoping they continue that for MOM! We've really been working with her on the sidelines!
I'm so happy Mikey was ok and his siser was safe and his house had minimal damage! Praying for all the JOPLIN area and residents/victims. Hoping to go up there sooooon to help and take pictures. Mikey's plant opened back up and he's covering a lot of shifts so he's MIA.
I want to end with bible verse/funny anecdote (sp?)/ prayer request. The only one close to me is the one from a church bulletin that I am copying in my journal and expanding the sermon notes from.
So I'll post it ...... HERE:
2 Chronicles 14:11
Then Asa called to the Lord his God and said, "Lord there is no one like you to help the powerless against the mighty. Help us O Lord our God, for we rely on you, and in your name we have come against this vast army. O Lord, you are our GOd, do not let man prevail against you."
Thanks for Reading.
So maybe I'll start here:
8:17 pm Barnes and Noble
COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE COFFEE
SO: The good:
Today has been good. I have been saving up errands (post office, pharmacy, returning borrowed movies, wmart needs, oil change) for when I NEEDED to go out because of GAS! With gas nearing $4 a gallon, with my honda being a sturdy V-6, it'll cost me $8 round trip just to check my mail in FARMINGTON! Sooo... when Mom got home in a grumpy mood from checking cows with Dad, I decided I needed to get out of the house too, and she needed to go with me :) I hadn't been to Fayetteville since SUNDAY! So, we rand errands with the sunroof open and some bluegrass pumpin through the speakers. Then when I got home, I wanted more "city energy" and got dressed up (shaved legs, dress, red lipstick (holycowwhoami) )and headed to Barnes and Noble! Ha! On a Friday night. I know. I'm such a loser.
So: What I'm Lovin:
- Barnes and Noble: This is my poor man's beach. I come here with my journal (where every post will be copied from), a book, and pay my bills and get high off caffeine- something I have kicked other than the occasional coffee or Diet Pepsi at the ever delicious Taco Bell :)
-BBT (Big Bang Theory): Reruns! I have somehow missed a bunch this season and am glad we've got a season of reruns. I always look forward to Thursday. Monday sucks. Tuesday Sucks. Wednesday is ok, because the next day is Thursday. Then who doesn't love Friday, Saturday, and after church and lunch Sunday nap? I also love Jimmy Kimmel Live, How I Met Your Mother that comes on at midnight? and the Nate Berkus show that lullaby me to sleep every morning.
-Mom usually wakes me up for the day (at 2pm or later no doubt) with her keyboard playing. She has hit every note since she started playing in rehab last May when we brought her keyboard to her. It's a nice wakeup chime for Hugo and I. We are bums ok? So sue us. :)
-June: my mare has been behaving ME and I finally got her to load!!!! Dad was cursing her and going to get rid of her, but IIIIIIII got her to load in the trailer without a fit! :) Now to work with saddling and riding her... Am I destined to have ornery pets?!
-The weather: I love the rain! I love the storms! I love the sunroof weather! I hate the HEAT! I am soooo a winter, snow, avalanche, frost bite person! AND our A/C is out. Woo! Come on Dollar General $8 fan!
The Ugly:
So we should find out Tuesday aboout Dad's prostate results. I think the rest of us are good. We were approved for another month of therapy and hoping they continue that for MOM! We've really been working with her on the sidelines!
I'm so happy Mikey was ok and his siser was safe and his house had minimal damage! Praying for all the JOPLIN area and residents/victims. Hoping to go up there sooooon to help and take pictures. Mikey's plant opened back up and he's covering a lot of shifts so he's MIA.
I want to end with bible verse/funny anecdote (sp?)/ prayer request. The only one close to me is the one from a church bulletin that I am copying in my journal and expanding the sermon notes from.
So I'll post it ...... HERE:
2 Chronicles 14:11
Then Asa called to the Lord his God and said, "Lord there is no one like you to help the powerless against the mighty. Help us O Lord our God, for we rely on you, and in your name we have come against this vast army. O Lord, you are our GOd, do not let man prevail against you."
Thanks for Reading.
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