More Farm Life

So the kittens' eyes have been gunky this week. Three of the seven have had their eyes gooped shut and I've had to remove all the gunk and some infection and clean them so that they can just open their eyes. Poor little babies. I did some research and all the internet recommended was a trip to the vet. Well I knew that wouldn't fly with the farm bills (and my own unemployed bank account) so Robert was going to put a drop of bull antibiotic for pink eye in each kitten (like half a drop in each eye) and go from there. But then when he went to get the bull vaccine, he picked up some kitten eye drops and I promised to pay him back. When he got home, I went out to get the kittens and got them all cleaned up again, and washed their hands so that they wouldn't get more dirt in them when they went to wipe their poor little eyes. First of all, with three crying kittens sitting in the floor with me in the bathroom, Robert had to plug his ears with cotton balls. It was driving him nuts. Then I held the kittens eyes open and he agreed to administer the eye drops. Until the infection started oozing out. My twenty year old brother, the ANIMAL SCIENCE MAJOR at UofA who has made the dean's list twice, started gagging. It grossed him out! He almost puked watching the gunk pour out of these poor babies eyes. I had to laugh. When I got home tonight from Jeremiah's ball game, all but two of the kittens had moved. Momma cat, Printhess, has moved them to a warmer spot than a dog carrier under the carport. Hope the drops worked and that I can find them again tomorrow in the daylight. And I hope Robert can keep his breakfast down when he helps me administer more.
Never a dull moment on the farm.

~Amber

Empowered.

I am laughing at myself. Almost in tears as I listen to none other than a Katy Perry song. I am in love. Roar.

I feel so empowered. I am literally sitting in my bed crocheting and watching Top Gear and listening to Katy Perry on my iPhone just about to weep. This is what a woman feels like.

For every hit I didn't take and moved on.
For every boy that sent me home when the movie was over bc I wasn't playing hanky afterwards.
For every time I've had my heart broken.
For every time I knew I was weaker than I should be.
For every time I cried in the shower.
For every time a girl on campus thought she was prettier than I was.
For every jeer I've ever had.
For every person I didn't mean to disappoint.

"Roar"

I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

[Chorus]
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Louder, louder than a lion
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh oh oh
You’re gonna hear me roar

Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero

You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder gonna shake the ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready ’cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

 

Because I can leave in the middle of the movie.

Because I can cure cancer.

Because I can pick myself up and dust myself off.

Because I can kick in vtech before you can blow smoke in my face.

Because I can make the best pot roast you have ever tasted.

Because I can make my own money and pay my own bills.

Because I can be a leader.

Because I can give birth or not and get married or not.

And you don't have that choice

And I am the stronger sex.

Because I can do it all and dance backwards in high heels.

Because I am woman.

 

You're gonna hear me roar.

 

PS

P.S. Boys are sooooo confusing

That one person. You can't seem to stop thinking about them. You run across a picture. Gosh we were so young. We didn't know anything at all about each other. And here now I know much more. But why don't you get out of my head? Why am I having dreams about you? Like I want you, I want you back in my life? I catch myself daydreaming scenarios where you pop back into my life and it all makes sense. Time to wake up. Reality is now.

cut em up

It probably took you a little while to realize, but you noticed that every single t shirt I own has to be a v neck. I think it's a sensitivity thing and a personal bubble space thing but I just can't wear crew necks. They drive me up the wall. I feel like I'm being eaten to death by tiny insects and scratched and suffocated. I've made do. I cut all my shirts. I didn't cut my Kiddie Campus t shirts because I didn't have to pay for them and we turn them in if we leave for any reason. So I didn't wear them. I think I wore them all once.
But now, I can't cut my Bikes Blues and BBQ shirt :/
This may get really ugly quick.

-Amber

I wish so badly that I could go back and change so many things.