I've recently read most of "A Million Little Pieces" by James Frey. I know it's not really Oprah's favorite anymore, but Oprah isn't my favorite. I had to stop like 45 pages to the end because it was getting so dark and depressing and I had read the epilogue and after something happens, and it can't be changed, it doesn't really matter how it happened anymore. Idk. It's still in my floor with a bookmark in it taunting me. Sidenote: Why in the world do people BUY bookmarks? Anywho, it's not secret that after Mom's whole ordeal, I have had depression and anxiety issues myself. I'm still being treated for them to this day, and sometimes the issues flare up, and let's just say I met my $2,000 medical insurance deductible before Valentine's Day. So being able to relate a little to James in his fictitious standing, I highlighted the passages I liked, and want to share them now with you, as you may never ever read the book. And unless you are used to dealing and handling dark matter (not the physics matter stuff) -iiiiit's not really a book I would personally recommend. So lo and behold, here we go: (Warning: The language is rough. Real rough. Backseat of the school bus ROUGH.) I'll edit it as much as I can, as I know several of my Last Name Sakes are reading.
1) "I'd a shot that Motherf-ers **** off and served it to his Momma on a sandwich." Ha. ok that one really made me laugh.
I love this paragraph about dignity. It's persuasive and makes me want to believe it myself. He could be right.
2) " I know a bit about the loss of dignity. I know that when you take away a man's dignity there is a hole, a deep black hole filled with despair, humiliation and self-hatred, filled with emptiness, shame, and disgrace, filled with loss and isolation and Hell. It's a deep, dark, horrible f-ing hole, and that hole is where people like me live our sad-as$, f-ed up, dignity-free, inhuman lives, and where we die, alone, miserable, wasted, and forgotten."
3) "Open mind, empty mind. I wonder if they're the same thing."
4)"The loss inhabits, fills and overwhelms me. It is the loss of a childhood of being a Teenager of normalcy of happiness of love of trust of reason of God of Family of friends of future of potential of dignity of humanity of sanity of myself of everything everything everything. I lost everything and I am lost reduced to a mass of mourning, sadness, grief, anguish, and heartache. I am lost. I have lost. Everything. Everything."
5)"If the book goes in the trash, I want it to go because of my thoughts on it, not because of some A-hole's thoughts who wrote the Introduction."
6) "The wounds that never heal can only be mourned alone" (That may be my favorite line)
7)"They say don't compare or compete simply be yourself. The say fill your bowl to the brim and it will spill, keep sharpening your knife and it will dull. They say chase after money and your heart will never unclench. Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner."
8) "If you do get caught, do it again."
That's all I've copied from the book since I stopped. I like all the purposeful capitalization of words when they were not meant to be grammatically. Frey does this, I think, to emphasize the importance of these nouns.
I absolutely love that book. Kind of irks me that he attempted to play it all off as entirely truthful. But it's a good read, nonetheless.
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